Accepting and Embracing Motherhood
Today we celebrate all mothers (which we should do 24/7/365). I certainly celebrate mine. She is an amazing woman that I have always admired and I am so thankful God chose her to be my mother. We're 2,000 miles apart, but I cherish the time spent together on visits and the daily phone conversations, emails -- even texting now! I love her so much and I am so blessed to still have her here on earth. My heart aches for those whose mothers have passed on and I can only imagine how difficult this day is. My prayer for you is to be saturated with the comfort and love of Jesus.
This day is also difficult for the mothers who have children in Heaven. Let us not forget the mothers who are suffering with loss during this time. The ones whose children were taken abruptly from this life by accidents and illnesses. The ones who were stillborn. The ones who were miscarried. The ones who were murdered. The ones who were aborted. Yes, that last one is something most people never consider on Mother's Day. But sadly enough, abortion is a choice. Those mothers are still judged and shamed by others and told they don't deserve to be acknowledged. But their children certainly deserve to be acknowledged. Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these.” Matthew 19:14.
I recently attended an 11 week session with a small group of women who aborted their children. Are you wondering why I would attend something like that? Well, here goes -- Because I am one of those women and I was in need of healing after all these years. Was my decision to abort a mistake? Yes! Wrong? Of course! I have felt the shame, guilt, pain and regret far too long. I was just 19 when I made a choice I didn't fully understand and the procedure took all of two minutes.
I immediately felt the emptiness of my womb move to my heart which caused me to deny that my child ever existed. I failed my child and I failed God! Believe me, I have beaten myself up over it! How could I ever be forgiven for such a horrible act? -- Because of my Heavenly Father's love and Jesus' sacrifice on the cross - that's how! In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. Psalm 18:6 . God still loves me with open arms. He has saved us and called us to a holy life - not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time. 2 Timothy 1:9
I am forgiven and I am pro-life! My child exists and is alive in Heaven. I feel the connection I have in Heaven waiting on me with open arms and a forgiving heart -- because my child has walked and talked with Jesus and knows no bitterness and no sin of this world. Do I wish that I could go back and change my decision? Yes! I've never held my child. I've never watched my child grow up. I don't know what my child's voice sounds like. But I know my child and Jesus is the bridge between us!
The past 34 Mother's Days have been difficult and this marks the first year I am accepting and embracing motherhood. You may feel I don't deserve to be called a mother, but my child absolutely deserves to be acknowledged. And I am certainly not celebrating or honoring myself as a mother. I am celebrating and honoring my child in Heaven because Madison exists and is alive with Jesus! Mommy loves you, Madison, and I will see you on that day when Jesus calls me home! Oh, what a glorious day that will be!
Will I still be judged and shamed by people on earth? Yes! But I listen intently to the Lord. "Come now, let us settle the matter, says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool." Isaiah 1:18.
May all mothers be blessed today in unimaginable ways!
To those who have had an abortion and would like help in healing, please reach out to me, your local church, to God himself. You are not alone. You can experience forgiveness, peace, closure and freedom again -- only through Jesus Christ! He has a purpose for you far beyond the chains of regret and shame and he loves you like no one else!